ליום שני דעשי"ת 7

סד. ע"פ א"ב. חתום יצחק בר סעדיה.

אֱלֹהֵֽינוּ וֵאלֹהֵי אֲבוֹתֵֽינוּ

Our God and God of our fathers!

אֵיךְ אוּכַל לָבֹא עָדֶיךָ.

How can I return to You through repentance

וְעוֹבְדֵי זוּלָתֶךָ

when those who worship other gods

לֹא־עֲזָבוּנִי לְעָבְדֶךָ.

don’t permit me to worship You?

וְהֵמָּה בִקְּשׁוּ לְהַפְרִידִי מִמְּךָ.

They seek to separate me from You

וַאֲנִי לֹא־עָזַבְתִּי פִּקֻּדֶיךָ:

and still I did not forsake Your precepts.

אֵיךְ גָּלִיתִי

How was I able to go into exile

וָאֵלֵךְ בְּכָל־הֵלֶךְ וָפֶלֶךְ.

and go on every path and province

וּמָלְכוּ עָלַי מַמְלִיכִים לְמֹלֶךְ.

while the idol worshippers ruled over me

וְהֵמָּה דִּינָם עוֹמֵד

with their laws that endured

וּמַלְכָּם מוֹלֵךְ.

and their king reigned for a long time;

וַאֲנִי לֹא־נִקְרֵאתִי

while I have not been called

לָבֹא אֶל־הַמֶּלֶךְ:

to come to the king?

אֵיךְ הָלְכוּ נְחָלִים

How were the rivers able to flow

מִדֶּלֶף־דִּמְעִי הַדָּלוּף.

from the dripping of my tears

וְנִמְסַרְתִּי לְפוֹעֲלֵי אָוֶן וְסִלּוּף.

while I was given over to evil doers?

וְהֵמָּה וּבְנֵיהֶם

They and their children

יוֹרוּנִי חֵץ שָׁלוּף.

shoot me with arrows from their quivers

וַאֲנִי כְּכֶבֶשֹ אַלּוּף:

while I am a choice sheep taken to slaughter.

אֵיךְ זְמַן קִצִּי נֶחְתָּם

How is it that the end of days is concealed

וְלֹא־נוֹדָע.

and not known,

וְאוֹיְבַי קַרְנִי גָדַע

and my enemies who cut my glory

מִשַּׁחַת פֻּדָּע.

are saved from death,

וְהֵמָּה חוֹשְׁבִים חָכְמָתָם

considering themselves wise

כְּהֵימָן וְדַרְדַּע.

like Haymon¹See Rashi Kings I, 2:11, referring to Moses and the generation that left Egypt. and Darda

וַאֲנִי בַעַר וְלֹא אֵדָע:

while I am foolish without wisdom.

אֵיךְ טֹרָפָה מַלְכוּת

How is it possible that the kingdom

מַמְלֶכֶת עַם־סְגֻלָּה.

of the Chosen People has been torn apart

וְאָרְכָה מְלוּכָה

while their kingdom has endured—

לְמַלְכֵי בְּנֵי עַוְלָה.

the kingdom of evildoers

וְהֵמָּה יוֹשְׁבִים לָבֶטַח

and they live with confidence,

בְּשִֹמְחָה וְגִילָה.

in joy and gladness

וַאֲנִי בְתוֹךְ־הַגּוֹלָה:

and I reside in exile?

אֵיךְ כּוֹס הַתַּרְעֵלָה

The potion of poison—

שָׁתִיתִי וָאֶגְמָע.

how did I drink and swallow?

בָּכִיתִי וָאֶדְמָע

I cried and shed tears

מֵעֹל־מַשָּׂא וּמִשְׁמָע.

because of the oppressive yoke of Ishmael

וְהֵמָּה לוֹעֲגִים עָלַי

while they mock me [and insist]

הַקְשִׁיבָה וּשְׁמָע.

that I heed and harken what they say

וַאֲנִי כְּחֵרֵשׁ

and I remain like a deaf person

לֹא אֶשְׁמָע:

and I do not hear.

אֵיךְ מְחָצַנִי אֱלֹהַי,

How was my God able to smite me

וּמַכְאוֹבִי לֹא־חֻבָּשׁ.

while my previous wounds were still unhealed

וּמְעִיל תִּפְאַרְתִּי

and the cloak of my glory

לִבְנֵי־אֱדוֹם הֻלְבָּשׁ.

was donned by Edom

וְהֵמָּה נֹפֶת אוֹכְלִים

as they eat their sweet delicacies—

חָלָב וּדְבָשׁ.

milk and honey,

וַאֲנִי כָּעֵשֶֹב אִיבָשׁ:

when I am like withered grass?

אֵיךְ סְבָבוּנִי קֵדָר

How did the nation of Kedar surround me

כִּתְּרוּנִי דְדָן־וּשְׁבָא.

and Didan and Shva rule over me?

הַקּוֹרְאִים נָבִיא

They proclaim as a prophet

לְאִישׁ מֵעוֹלָם לֹא־נִבָּא.

a man who never prophecied

וְהֵמָּה עוֹשִֹים חַיִל

they provide strength for their kingdoms,

גְּדוּד וּצְבָא.

troops and armies

וַאֲנִי אָנָה אֲנִי־בָא:

and I, where shall I go?

אֵיךְ פָּקַדְתָּ עָלַי

How did You administer such suffering

כַּאֲשֶׁר הֵרֵעוֹתִי וְהִסְכָּלְתִּי

commensurate with my sins and foolishness?

בְּשִׁנֵּי אֲרָיוֹת וּלְבָאִים

In the teeth of lions and lionesses

נֶאֱכָלְתִּי:

was I consumed,

וְהֵמָּה צָעִיר־וְרַב

and they, young and old [were confident]

אוֹמְרִים מָצָאתִי וְגַּם־יָכֹלְתִּי.

saying that they can overpower us.

וַאֲנִי כַּאֲשֶׁר שָׁכוֹלְתִּי

As I was childless from previous suffering,

שָׁכָלְתִּי:

I became again childless from further suffering.

אֵיךְ קָדְרוּ כּוֹכָבַי

How did my stars become dark

וְחָזְרוּ גַלְגַּלַּי.

and my zodiac change

וְעוֹבְדֵי גִלּוּלִים גָּלְלוּ גְלִילַי.

as the nations abominated my scrolls?

וְהֵמָּה רִחֲקוּ רַגְלַי

They prevented my feet

מֵעֲלוֹת רְגָלַי.

from ascending to Jerusalem during festivals

וַאֲנִי כִּמְעַט נָטָיוּ רַגְלָי:

and I virtually veered completely from God.

אֵיךְ שָׁמַרְתָּ מַעֲוָיַי

How did You heed my iniquities

וּנְטַרְתַּנִי חוֹבִי.

and scrutinize my guilt

וּמֵרִיבֵי נַפְשִׁי

but against those who battle my soul

לֹא־רַבְתָּ רִיבִי.

You did not defend me?

וְהֵמָּה תָּקְפָם וְכֹחָם

Even while they were in full strength

לְהַכְאִיבִי וּלְהַדְאִיבִי.

in inflicting pain and anguish upon me

וַאֲנִי בְּחַסְדְּךָ בָטַחְתִּי

and still I trusted in Your kindness

יָגֵל לִבִּי:

and my heart therefore rejoiced.

אֵיךְ יָשַׁבְתִּי בָדָד

How did I sit alone

וָאֱהִי לְנִדָּה.

and become cast astray

מִכָּבוֹד יְרוּדָה

and denigrated from my dignity?

בַּגּוֹיִם נְדוּדָה.

I wandered amongst the nations

וְהֵמָּה צָלְחוּ וּמָלְכוּ

while they ruled and were successful

וּמֶמְשַׁלְתָּם עָמְדָה.

their kingdom endured

וַאֲנִי שְׁכוּלָה וְגַלְמוּדָה:

and I am childless and alone.

אֵיךְ חֵרְפוּנִי מְעוֹלָלַי

How have my mockers and denigraters

מְהוֹלָלַי כֻּלָּהֶם.

so embarrassed me.

צִלָּם אֶצְלָם לֹא־סָר מֵעֲלֵיהֶם.

Their power has not deserted them;

וְהֵמָּה קָרְאוּ

as they cried out

הֶאָח הֶאָח בְּמִלֵּיהֶם.

Aha! Aha! with words [of joy]

וַאֲנִי הָיִיתִי חֶרְפָּה לָהֶם:

I was a disgrace with them.

אֵיךְ בֵּינֵיהֶם נִשְׁאַרְתִּי

How did I remain amongst them

דּוֹאֵג וְדוֹאֵב.

in worry and pain?

מִפַּלְגֵי יְגוֹנָם

From the waves of anguish they pour on me

וּמִמְּקוֹרָם שׁוֹאֵב

and from their spring, do I draw;

וְהֵמָּה רוֹבְצִים וְשׁוֹכְבִים

while they rest and lay [secure]

כְּעוֹרֵב וְכִזְאֵב.

as the raven and the wolf,

וַאֲנִי עָנִי וְכוֹאֵב:

while I am oppressed and sore.

אֵיךְ שֹוֹנְאֵי כָל־טָהֳרָה

How is it that those who despise pureness,

שָׁכְנוּ בְצִיּוֹן.

dwell in Zion?

מִי־הֶאֱמִין כָּזֶה

Who would believe such a thing,

מִי־עָלָה־לוֹ בְּרִצָיוֹן.

who would imagine this to be God’s will?

וְהֵמָּה עֲשִׁירִים נְשִֹיאִים

While they are wealthy princes,

נְתוּנִים עֶלְיוֹן.

having been given high positions,

וַאֲנִי עָנִי וְאֶבְיוֹן:

I remain impoverished and needy.

אֵיךְ־גָרוּ בְהֵיכָלוֹתַי

How do they live in my Palace [my Temple]

וְשָׁכְנוּ־בָם שְׁכוֹן.

and dwell there in dwellings

מֵעֶלְיוֹן לְתַחְתּוֹן

from above to below²The Temple mount to the Courtyard.

וּמִתַּחְתּוֹן לְתִיכוֹן.

and from below to the middle?³From the Courtyard to the Temple.

וְהֵמָּה יָרְשׁוּ הוֹן זָהָב

While they have inherited a wealth of gold

וַאֲדַרְכּוֹן.

and precious coins,

וַאֲנִי לְצֶלַע נָכוֹן:

I am crippled while awaiting more blows.

אֵיךְ חֶשְׁבּנוֹתַי נָפוֹצוּ

How is that my thoughts are confused

וְהֵמָּה־עָלוּ בְּמַחְשְׁבוֹתֶיךָ.

while they remain in Your thoughts?

זָכְרֵנוּ־נָא וּפָקְדֵּנוּ

Remember us and be mindful of us

בִּישׁוּעָתֶךָ מֵעוֹבְדֵי בִּלְתֶּךָ.

for deliverance from idol worshippers.

וְהֵמָּה קַלְּעֵם וְבַלְּעֵם

Let them be devoured and removed

מִמְּכוֹן שִׁבְתֶּךָ.

from the Place of Your Dwelling,

וַאֲנִי בְּרֹב חַסְדְּךָ

and then through Your abundant kindness,

אָבוֹא בֵיתֶךָ:

I will enter Your House.

אֵל מֶֽלֶךְ.

Almighty! King!

יוֹשֵׁב עַל כִּסֵּא רַחֲמִים.

Who sits on the throne of mercy,

מִתְנַהֵג בַּחֲסִידוּת.

governs with kindness

מוֹחֵל עֲו‍ֹנוֹת עַמּוֹ.

forgives the iniquities of His people.

מַעֲבִיר רִאשׁוֹן רִאשׁוֹן.

He removes their sins one by one,

מַרְבֶּה מְחִילָה לְחַטָּאִים

increasing forgiveness to sinners,

וּסְלִיחָה לְפוֹשְׁעִים.

and pardon to transgressors.

עוֹשֶׂה צְדָקוֹת

Acting righteously

עִם כָּל בָּשָׂר וָרֽוּחַ.

with all who are of flesh and spirit;

לֹא כְרָעָתָם

not according to their wickedness

תִּגְמוֹל:

does He repay them.

אֵל

Almighty!

הוֹרֵיתָ לָנוּ לוֹמַר

You instructed us to recite

שְׁלשׁ עֶשְׂרֵה.

the thirteen Divine attributes;

וּזְכָר לָֽנוּ הַיּוֹם

remember unto us this day

בְּרִית שְׁלשׁ עֶשְׂרֵה.

the covenant of thirteen Divine attributes,

כְּמוֹ שֶׁהוֹדַֽעְתָּ

as You made them known

לֶעָנָו מִקֶּֽדֶם.

to the humble Moses of old,

כְּמוֹ שֶׁכָּתוּב

as it is written,

וַיֵּרֶד יְהֹוָה בֶּֽעָנָן

“And Adonoy descended in the cloud,

וַיִּתְיַצֵּב עִמּוֹ שָׁם

and stood with him there,

וַיִּקְרָא בְשֵׁם יְהֹוָה:

and proclaimed the Name, Adonoy.

קהל וחזן:

Congregation and Chazzan:

וַיַּֽעֲבֹר יְהֹוָה עַל פָּנָיו

And Adonoy passed before him [Moses],

וַיִּקְרָא:

and proclaimed:

יְהֹוָה יְהֹוָה

Adonoy, Adonoy,

אֵל רַחוּם וְחַנּוּן

Almighty, Merciful, Gracious,

אֶֽרֶךְ אַפַּֽיִם

Slow to Anger,

וְרַב חֶֽסֶד וֶֽאֱמֶת:

and Abundant in Kindness, and Truth.

נֹצֵר חֶֽסֶד

Keeper of kindness

לָאֲלָפִים

for thousands of generations,

נֹשֵׂא עָו‍ֹן וָפֶֽשַׁע

Endurer of iniquity, and transgression,

וְחַטָּאָה

and sin;

וְנַקֵּה:

and Acquitter of those who repent.

וְסָלַחְתָּ לַעֲו‍ֹנֵֽנוּ וּלְחַטָּאתֵֽנוּ

“And pardon our iniquity and our sin,

וּנְחַלְתָּֽנוּ:

and take us for Your inheritance.”

סְלַח לָֽנוּ אָבִֽינוּ כִּי חָטָֽאנוּ.

Pardon us our Father, for we have sinned,

מְחַל לָֽנוּ מַלְכֵּֽנוּ כִּי פָשָֽׁעְנוּ:

forgive us our King, for we have transgressed.

כִּי אַתָּה אֲדֹנָי

“For You, my Master,

טוֹב וְסַלָּח

are good and forgiving,

וְרַב חֶֽסֶד

and abounding in kindness

לְכָל קֹרְאֶֽיךָ:

to all who call upon You.”

יִּזְכֹּר אֱלֹהִים אֶת־בְּרִיתוֹ

God will remember His covenant

אֶת־אַבְרָהָם אֶת־יִצְחָק

with Abraham, with Isaac

וְאֶת־יַעֲקֹב׃

and with Jacob.

בִּי נִשְׁבַּעְתִּי נְאֻם־יְהוָה

“I have sworn by Myself,” declares Adonoy,

כִּי יַעַן אֲשֶׁר עָשִׂיתָ

“That because you performed

אֶת־הַדָּבָר הַזֶּה

this deed

וְלֹא חָשַׂכְתָּ

and did not withhold

אֶת־בִּנְךָ אֶת־יְחִידֶךָ׃

your only son,

כִּי־בָרֵךְ אֲבָרֶכְךָ

I will bless you greatly

וְהַרְבָּה אַרְבֶּה אֶת־זַרְעֲךָ

and make your descendants numerous

כְּכוֹכְבֵי הַשָּׁמַיִם

as the stars of the sky

וְכַחוֹל אֲשֶׁר עַל־שְׂפַת הַיָּם

and as the sand on the seashore,

וְיִרַשׁ זַרְעֲךָ

and your descendants will inherit

אֵת שַׁעַר אֹיְבָיו׃

the gate of their enemies.

וְהִתְבָּרֲכוּ בְזַרְעֲךָ

Through your children, will be blessed

כֹּל גּוֹיֵי הָאָרֶץ

all the nations of the world

עֵקֶב אֲשֶׁר שָׁמַעְתָּ בְּקֹלִי׃

because you heeded my voice.”

כְּרַחֵם אָב עַל בָּנִים

As a father has compassion on his children

כֵּן תְּרַחֵם יְהֹוָה עָלֵֽינוּ:

so do You have compassion on us, Adonoy.

לַיהֹוָה הַיְשׁוּעָה,

Deliverance is Adonoy’s;

עַל עַמְּךָ בִרְכָתֶֽךָ סֶּֽלָה:

upon Your people is Your blessing. Selah!

יְהֹוָה צְבָאוֹת עִמָּֽנוּ

Adonoy of Hosts is with us,

מִשְׂגָּב לָֽנוּ, אֱלֹהֵי יַעֲקֹב סֶֽלָה:

a stronghold for us is the God of Jacob. Selah!

יְהֹוָה צְבָאוֹת,

Adonoy of Hosts!

אַשְׁרֵי אָדָם בֹּֽטֵֽחַ בָּךְ:

fortunate is the man who trusts in You.

יְהֹוָה הוֹשִֽׁיעָה,

Adonoy, deliver us;

הַמֶּֽלֶךְ יַעֲנֵֽנוּ בְיוֹם קָרְאֵנוּ:

the King will answer us on the day we call.

סְלַח נָא לַעֲו‍ֹן הָעָם הַזֶּה,

“Please pardon the sins of this nation

כְּגֹֽדֶל

in accordance with the greatness

חַסְדֶּֽךָ.

of Your lovingkindness;

וְכַאֲשֶׁר נָשָֽׂאתָה לָעָם הַזֶּה.

and as You forgave this people

מִמִּצְרַֽיִם וְעַד הֵֽנָּה.

from when it left Egypt until now.”

וְשָׁם נֶאֱמַר:

And there it is said:

וַיֹּאמֶר יְהֹוָה

“And Adonoy said,

סָלַֽחְתִּי כִּדְבָרֶֽךָ:

I have pardoned [them] as you have asked.”

הַטֵּה אֱלֹהַי אָזְנְךָ וּשְׁמָע,

Incline Your ear, my God, and hear,

פְּקַח עֵינֶֽיךָ וּרְאֵה שֹׁמְמֹתֵֽינוּ,

open Your eyes and behold our desolate places,

וְהָעִיר אֲשֶׁר נִקְרָא שִׁמְךָ עָלֶֽיהָ

and the city which is called by Your Name;

כִּי לֹא עַל צִדְקֹתֵֽינוּ,

for it is not on account of our righteousness

אֲנַֽחְנוּ מַפִּילִים תַּחֲנוּנֵֽינוּ לְפָנֶֽיךָ,

that we let fall our supplication before You,

כִּי עַל רַחֲמֶֽיךָ הָרַבִּים:

but because of Your great mercy.

אֲדֹנָי שְׁמָֽעָה, אֲדֹנָי סְלָֽחָה,

My Master, hear! My Master, pardon!

אֲדֹנָי הַקְשִֽׁיבָה וַעֲשֵׂה,

My Master, listen and take action,

אַל תְּאַחַר.

do not delay!

לְמַעַנְךָ אֱלֹהַי,

For Your sake, my God,

כִּי שִׁמְךָ נִקְרָא

because Your Name is proclaimed

עַל עִירְךָ וְעַל עַמֶּֽךָ:

over Your city and over Your people.